I am a broken man, and seek for the constant aid of Jesus Christ to mend and heal me. This blog will be a raw attempt to explain the things that I have learned through Him and life’s experiences. I start with this subject to clear the air and to give hope to those who also struggle with it. I hope that many souls will learn from my mistakes, reach unto and grab Christ’s hand and forego the misery of sin. I am grateful for the experiences that have come my way. Yet I sorrow for the sins I have committed, and I realize that I need Jesus Christ to become whole. “Repent and bring forth fruit showing repentance, and I will establish my covenant with you and claim you as mine.” T&C 157:23 <–This is my hearts desire.
I am 38 years old at the time of this blog post.
While studying the scriptures, and praying to the Lord this Sunday morning, I received direction to profess my belief in Christ and to condemn a certain doctrine which has destroyed many lives and almost consumed mine.
I was raised a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. At an early age, I was taught about the doctrine of plural marriage (D&C 132) . I learned through active study that Joseph Smith had many wives and taught about this doctrine secretly. For years I held this belief and it wreaked havok in my life. I have learned after years of study and experience that it is an untrue and damning doctrine. I believe Joseph Smith to be a trustworthy and virtuous man. He said in 1843, “What a thing it is for a man to be accused of committing adultery, and having seven wives, when I can only find one.” (DHC 6:411) He was speaking of Emma.
I will commence to give you my story. I do not wish to harm anyone with the content written next. But it has come to my attention that many people have been sucked into this same hole that I found myself in. This is an effort to help others not make the same mistakes that I did. I relate my experience to help free my brothers who are trapped in this false belief. Those especially in the Remnant Groups (you know who you are). The story I relate next is written to those who listen to ‘Oracles’ and ‘Soothsayers’. Many on the path who are coming unto Christ will run into these people frequently. Be cautious and only take away what you need to from them.
Over this past weekend my wife and I attended a restoration conference at Aravada Springs in Nevada. It was a beautiful event which my wife and I found enriching. We were asked by many where we were from. “Mt. Pleasant, UT we told them.” Half of them asked us if we were part of a certain group in Mount Pleasant and praised the mans name who more or less was at the head of the group. It made both my wife and I sick as it brought up memories of what occurred 8 years prior. – I attended all of this mans courses called “Jedi classes” I attended Jedi 1 & 2 multiple times and also attended 3 & 4. In the 2nd Jedi course, he proceeded to tell us that his daughter (a sighted person who can see through the veil) had seen a vision of Christ and His 3 wives. He asked “does anyone here have a problem with that?” She had seen him chasing one of his wives around the kitchen table and being playful with her. I am quick to believe people and had the belief that his daughter had a special connection with heaven and could see beyond the veil, as was taught in a book she published. I believed the visions that were taught in these courses which altered my beliefs, and caused much damage to the relationship with my wife. I moved forward with the relationship with the family and got to know he & his daughter on a more personal level. He taught by his own experience that he would receive something ‘from the Lord’, then go to his sighted daughter and another sighted woman friend to 2nd and 3rd witness what he had received if it was true. The other woman was another sighted friend (seeing beyond the veil into the spirit world). I asked his daughter for a witness of plural marriage, if I was hearing correctly that I was being asked to practice it. Having already accepted the belief, and being naive and trusting this “unveiled oracle”, the belief had turned into truth. She told me on multiple occasions I was destined to live the law of plural marriage and it would be asked of me very soon. She gave the names of a few women who were being prepared for me. I chewed on this for a while, and decided I needed a 3rd witness.
I install carpets for a living. I asked him if his other friend (the sighted woman) needed carpeting. Her carpets were worn and I donated much to have this done for her. While installing carpet, I asked her if I could have a 3rd witness on something. She consented. I asked her if God was telling me that I would be asked to practice plural marriage in this mortality . I was very concise with my words so she did not confuse the timing of my question. She looked above my left shoulder, looked down at me and said “yes this will be asked of you”. This destroyed me as I love my wife. Yet I was going to be obedient ‘to the Lord’ so I thought. The adversary then played games with me for some time, which led me into forbidden paths. I know many who listen to people like these soothsayers. “And I will cut off witchcrafts out of thy land, and thou shalt have no more soothsayers.” (3 Ne. 9:12) There are many soothsayers in the land. It can lead to havok in your lives. This is a warning from one who gave their ear, and was almost destroyed for doing so. Only give heed to those who speak by the power of the Holy Ghost, and who use the scriptures as their guide to teach.
This doctrine when combined with the flesh creates an abominable monster within. I sought for understanding concerning it. As I sought, the lusts of the flesh would creep in and opportunities to ‘receive revelation’ also came. Satan taught me that Joseph Smith did indeed have many wives, and had free intercourse with them. The great deceiver had dug his hooks into me and I also desired this seemingly great gift given unto those who are ‘heirs of salvation’. I am living proof that this damning doctrine ruins lives, it gives justification for sin, and destroys the hearts of women and children. To clarify, I never partook of the lusts of the flesh completely, but far enough to tear my beautiful family apart. Jacob in the Book of Mormon is a hero of mine, and deserves great credit for helping me distinguish my errors. Listen to this Servant of the Lord!!
“But behold, hearken ye unto me and know that by the help of the all-powerful Creator of Heaven and earth, I can tell you concerning your thoughts, how that ye are beginning to labor in sin, which sin appeareth very abominable unto me, yea, and abominable unto God. Yea, and it grieveth my soul, and causeth me to shrink with shame before the presence of my Maker, that I must testify unto you concerning the wickedness of your hearts. And also it grieveth me that I must use so much boldness of speech concerning you before your wives and your children, many of whose feelings are exceeding tender, and chaste, and delicate before God, which thing is pleasing unto God. And it supposeth me that they have come up hither to hear the pleasing word of God, yea, the word which healeth the wounded soul. Wherefore, it burdeneth my soul that I should be constrained, because of the strict commandment which I have received from God, to admonish you according to your crimes, to enlarge the wounds of those who are already wounded, instead of consoling and healing their wounds. And those who have not been wounded, instead of feasting upon the pleasing word of God, have daggers placed to pierce their souls and wound their delicate minds. But notwithstanding the greatness of the task, I must do according to the strict commands of God and tell you concerning your wickedness and abominations in the presence of the pure in heart, and the broken heart, and under the glance of the piercing eye of the Almighty God. Wherefore, I must tell you the truth according to the plainness of the word of God. For behold, as I inquired of the Lord, thus came the word unto me, saying, Jacob, get thou up into the temple on the morrow and declare the word which I shall give thee unto this people. And were it not that I must speak unto you concerning a grosser crime, my heart would rejoice exceedingly because of you. But the word of God burthens me because of your grosser crimes. For behold, thus saith the Lord: This people begins to wax in iniquity; they understand not the scriptures, for they seek to excuse themselves in committing whoredoms because of the things which are written concerning David, and Solomon his son. Behold, David and Solomon truly had many wives and concubines, which thing was abominable before me, saith the Lord. Wherefore, thus saith the Lord: I have led this people forth out of the land of Jerusalem by the power of mine arm, that I might raise up unto me a righteous branch from the fruit of the loins of Joseph. Wherefore, I, the Lord God, will not suffer that this people shall do like unto them of old. Wherefore, my brethren, hear me and hearken to the word of the Lord: For there shall not any man among you have save it be one wife, and concubines he shall have none; for I, the Lord God, delighteth in the chastity of women. And whoredoms are an abomination before me; thus saith the Lord of Hosts. Wherefore, this people shall keep my commandments, saith the Lord of Hosts, or cursed be the land for their sakes.” (Jacob 2:2, 3, 6,7)
“…They that are after the flesh cannot please God” Rom. 1:33. This scripture resonates deeply within me. In my constant seeking and desire to subdue the flesh, as the Apostle Paul did, I was referred to a talk given by Denver Snuffer called “Understanding Your Soul”. I admonish all men to listen to it. I feel like the contents were given directly to me. It has given me much strength, and the tools to curb the ferocity of the flesh.
These next two talks have solidified my understanding now that Plural Marriage is an abomination. Joseph Smith was doing something very different than marrying women and humping on them. Joseph Smith is as honorable and true as the sun comes up each day. He was virtuous and chaste, and gave Emma the respect of being his one and only queen.
This talk titled “Marriage and Family” saved my marriage 7 years ago. I was about the plurality business, and seeking it out when this talk was given. My wife and I were in attendance, and I felt as though I was back in Jeremiah’s day being blasted by a Servant of God. Believe it or not, it is refreshing to feel the words of God hit you like a sand blaster tearing off the old paint and incorrect beliefs and traditions of my fathers.
We must root this evil doctrine from our breasts, and be true and faithful to our beautiful brides. They deserve chaste and virtuous husbands. All men who believe in this doctrine are not chaste and virtuous in their hearts. The Lord praised the Lamanite’s for their deep devotion to their companions, yet cursed the Nephites for seeking out this damning doctrine.
“Behold, the Lamanites, your brethren whom ye hate because of their filthiness and the cursings which hath come upon their skins, are more righteous than you; for they have not forgotten the commandment of the Lord which was given unto our father, that they should have save it were one wife, and concubines they should have none, and there should not be whoredoms committed among them. And now this commandment they observe to keep. Wherefore, because of this observance in keeping this commandment, the Lord God will not destroy them, but will be merciful unto them, and one day they shall become a blessed people. Behold, their husbands love their wives, and their wives love their husbands, and their husbands and their wives love their children; and their unbelief and their hatred towards you is because of the iniquity of their fathers. Wherefore, how much better are you than they in the sight of your great Creator?” (Jacob 2:11)
The Lord desires to heal us from our blindness and our unbelief. He stated in 2017 when He offered us a new covenant
“I desire to heal you from an awful state of blindness so that you may see clearly my will, to do it. I promised to bring unto you much of my gospel through the Book of Mormon and to provide you with the means to obtain a fullness of my gospel, and I have done this; yet you refuse to receive the truth, even when it is given unto you in plainness. How can you who pursue the truth yet remain unable to behold your own weakness before me? Unto what can I liken it, that you may understand? For you are like a man who seeks for good fruit from a neglected vineyard — unwatered, undunged, unpruned, and unattended. How shall it produce good fruit if you fail to tend it? What reward does the unfaithful husbandman obtain from his neglected vineyard? How can saying you are a faithful husbandman ever produce good fruit in the vineyard without doing the work of the husbandman? For you seek my words to recover them even as you forsake to do them. You have heretofore produced wild fruit, bitter and ill-formed, because you neglect to do my words.” (T&C 157:16,17) This scripture has many applications, and it aptly fits in this narrative.
David’s Psalms have always given me strength. Here is a man who struggled greatly with the desires of the flesh. His repentance humbles me. I can feel the tearing of his heart as he yearns for comfort from the Lord.
“I sought the Lord, and he heard me and delivered me from all my fears. They looked unto him and were lightened, and their faces were not ashamed. This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him and saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encamps round about them that fear him and delivers them. O taste and see that the Lord is good. Blessed is the man that trusts in him. O fear the Lord, you his saints, for there is no lack to them that fear him. The young lions do lack, and suffer hunger; but they that seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.” (Ps. 34:2)
“O Lord, rebuke me not in your anger, neither chasten me in your hot displeasure. Have mercy upon me, O Lord, for I am weak. O Lord, heal me, for my bones are vexed. My soul is also seriously vexed, but you, O Lord — how long? Return, O Lord. Deliver my soul. Oh save me for your mercies’ sake. For in death there is no remembrance of you; in the grave, who shall give you thanks? I am weary with my groaning. All night I make my bed to swim. I water my couch with my tears. My eye is consumed because of grief. It waxes old because of all my enemies. Depart from me, all you workers of iniquity, for the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping. The Lord has heard my supplication. The Lord will receive my prayer. Let all my enemies be ashamed and severely vexed. Let them return and be ashamed suddenly.” (Ps. 6:1)
What a whammy for my first blog post. I realize there is a lot of sensitive material here, and I have stripped myself before you. I hope that my experience will help others to shed themselves of unbelief, foolish acts, and the damning traditions of their fathers.